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Thursday, March 9th, 2006
12:16 am	My goals for spring/summer Today is March 9th 2006 exactly 130 days until my 21st birthday. The time is 12:03 am. I am writing to set in stone my goals that I want to achieve before my 21st Birthday. I am a firm believer that if you put your goals down on paper, you can and will achieve the things in life that you want to, as long as you put your entire heart and soul into it, anything is possible, just as long as you believe in your self. I set some goals last year ones that I never thought I would ever be able to achieve and low and behold I did. They were personal goals like do well in classes, (which I did okay, not as well as I wanted to but, I did achieve this goal this past Quarter) Another Goal I had set for myself was to have my first college kiss, and lets say that was check number 2 on my top five list, number 3 was to make Pack Captain, and VP/Match Secretary something I had always wanted as a freshmen, to follow in the footsteps of my Rugby Veteran,(Christi) and I guess what I was voted both as a sophomore for my junior year. Well here is my latest goal which is actually working, I have set some small goals and they are working so far I just hope I can keep up with them. They are First to get in shape. I have been doing bridge runs every day or every other day (depending on how sore I am) My goal is to have a healthy weight, one that I can be proud of to put on my driver’s license, which I think will happen, I am determined i have even made changes to my diet, and with the help of my health class that I took, I know the most effective ways to achieve my goal, and besides its going to be spring quarter, I need to be there on the field for my girls, and with it being spring quarter I want to feel good about myself, and enjoy the beautiful weather and make it better than my last spring quarter which is going to be hard to top, but I am up for the challenge, I am always up for a challenge! I love everyone, Cant wait to go home for spring break and see my family, miss them lots, and maybe i will run into christine, my favorite rugger that I miss desperately..... Current Mood: happy Current Music: Once Again - FankieJay (Comment on this)
Monday, February 20th, 2006
11:32 pm	My crazy weekend........ so this weekend was suppose to be great! I was having a guy friend, one that i was interested come and visit it me this weekend, needless to say he stood me up, and is not talking to me at the moment, and I am not talking to him, (but i am willing to if he would talk to me, i even forgave him a little bit) anyways, people always say things happen for a reason, and this i beleive to be true! I am so exstatic because when david ditched me, i was able to have a fun night at Evo, yea i said Evo, and have a good time getting drunk at our party that Matt came too (yeah! christine the Matt, the one we have talked about ) anyways i just wanted to say that even though a weekend can start out really shitty, once you cry and let it all out things work out for the best! gotta study test tomorrow! luv judes Current Mood: good Current Music: Fair- Remy Zero (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
8:43 am	Happy Holidays So i thought this winter break from OU was going to be a busy one. One where I work my butt off running packages all day for UPS in this lovely cleveland weather that we call snow, and make some good holiday cash, well so far I havent been called into work one day yet this week! what gives? this is total bull crap and the worst part is that I have looked for other jobs to replace this current one at UPS and came up with nada, so it looks like my holiday spending has been cut short, bc u need money in order to spend it and I still have to be able to make next months rent which isnt looking so good right at this very moment! AHHHH!!! I hate this shit! well gotta run and take a shower and attempt to be productive today! call me I am bored out of my mind!! Love Judes (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 15th, 2005
6:15 pm	ehh... So today I have finally realized that my butt is in debt. Not only do i have an outragously priced cell phone bill which does need a credit adjustment, I have no money to buy any groceries and if it wasn't for my room mates i think i might be a starving college student. This is all because I signed a lease for a house next year without consulting my parents and my deposit is whats hurting me so bad, cause I had to use rent money, and this is all because my parents are trying to prove me wrong and say that it is definately cheaper to live in the dorms versus living off campus. I wish i could say that i spent my money on clothes, or beer, but nope it went to bills, I don't even get to enjoy my pay check and I think my parents are going to kill me, seriously they told me that I was going to have a "talk" which means your in trouble, and we are going to lecture you on how you spend your money. well all i have to say to that is blah blah blah, and that linz is going to show me how to budget my money more wisely which is a good thing! Well I gotta get back to studying aka procrastinating... good luck on finals! Judes Current Mood: ehh Current Music: Ben Harper ~ Walk Away (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 10th, 2005
5:02 pm	I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!! so i totally love my best friend in the entire world! She is so amazing and when ever we do anything together something good always happens to one of us, and lately its been good for both of us. Well here are the things and reasons why I luv my bestest friend in the world Joanna Reason # 1.) She is always there 2.) She always looks out for me, and I do the same for her 3.) She motivates me when I need it the most 4.) She is always doing crazy things 5.) If it wasnt for her most of the good things in life would never happen 6.) She is the only friend that ever saw my first kiss, and I am glad we were able to share that moment 7.) She gives great advice like you better go out with him or I will punch you in the face and never talk to you 8.) Road trips to visit her at home are never a dull moment 9.) When we go out we always have a good time 10.) She is my support in everything whether rugby, school, boys or family related 11.) She is my first and FAVORITE ROOKIE 12.) SHe is the only one that truely understands me 100% of the time ...... there are lots and lots more but i need to go to the store to buy some food for dinner... Luv Judes PS Jo I honestly dont know what I would do without you kid! Current Mood: giddy Current Music: Journey ~ when the lights go down (Comment on this)
1:24 am	I love fall.... So its official I am just one boy crazy girl. It never seems to fail that when I have given up one guy I quickly set my sights on another one. However this time this is one that I have liked from a distance but never saw anything ever happening between us, until this fall, when my litte heart arrived back in Athens, and was fortunate to find a job some place other than the dinning hall, and this my friend is where it all took place. So this guy ( not going to mention any names) he used to live in my dorm last year, and he has one of the cutest smiles in the world, he is a very nice guy, and a smart one too if that helps! But thats all i have to say about him right now, but trust me there will be more... I will be a very very busy little bee over winter break so I will try to update this as frequent as I can, but feel free to call the cell its always on! Love, Judes PS I Heart Athens!!! Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Its a Great Day to be Alive ~ Travis Tritt (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 5th, 2005
11:19 pm	Fall Quarter Junior Year So I know that I haven't kept up with this at all this quarter so I thought I would make this a rather long one and update everyone on how I have been doing... So for those of you who know me very well you will know that I was lucky enough to be Pack Captain for the girls rugby team, however due to my stupid stubborn shoulder, I was forced to sit out the first serveral practices, and have tried to be the best captain that i could be since I was injured, well ladies I am sorry if i have disappointed you in anyway and I hope that in the spring I can show how I will lead all of you into a better season, and hopefully lead you to a more successful and fun one! As far as school goes, school is okay I am taking a class called Quantitative analysis and its been my favorite chemistry class that I have ever taken here at OU which is weird but it is the most practical one in regards to lab work, and I actually love going to lab, ya i know i am a dork, but hey this is going to be my job or has the potential to be my job for the rest of my life so I better enjoy it! All my other classes arent going bad except this one pain in the ass class that I will be so happy to be out of once the quarter is over. As far as my social life is going I would say that this has been the best quarter yet! I may have kissed a few guys ( i am not a kiss and tell kind of girl so unless you have specific questions dont ask then) I got to spend some time with the UC guy for those of you that know about him, lets just say that I had lots and lots of "fun" with him, maybe even more fun then the first time I met him(hmm wouldnt you like to know what the "fun " is) hahaha I love boys thats all i have to say. I do miss my vets though! School just doesnt always seem to be as much fun as it used to but Jo and Kelly are definately trying to make it just as good but I dont know its hard to replace a crazy kate, a flirtatious christine, a team drunk with its leader Krause, and funny christ... .... well there is also that dumb matt guy but that will have to wait for another journal entry b/c i gotta go pick up some lovely roomies from the opposite side of campus! My friends better love me! Judes Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: Shake it off (Comment on this)
11:17 pm	Terrible week Have you ever had one of those never ending weeks? the ones where no matter how hard you try to make the next day better it doesn't work and its just as lousey as the next one, well thats been my life this entire week, nothing but important life change decisions, meetings with very important people, and carring a somewhat heavy course load, no to mention being swamped in homework and projects that I have lost complete communication with the people that I love and enjoy spending my time with the most! Why is it that life without rugby people does not seem realistic anymore? why is it that unless I am with these girls I don't seem to have fun anymore? I know that these types of friends are hard to find, but i just feel lost without them and if I dont figure out my life expectations soon, I will have to erase them from part of my life and I will become a lonely lost soul among people. Life sucks right now I just wish this wasnt so damn hard (Comment on this)
Monday, May 9th, 2005
11:00 pm	A weekend of pure fun! So I just want to say that this past weekend was the greatest weekend ever!!! Partying with ali and her mom, was sooo much fun, the rugby party on staurday with the girls, and especially hangingout with Childers mom was the greatest! and then who could forget the CUTE UC guy that I made out with??? ahh that was wonderful!!! I just want to thank my closests friends for all of their advice saturday night and I just want you guys to know that I definately made you proud. Love, Judes! Current Mood: wonderful Current Music: Aeroplane - Neutral Milk Hotel (Comment on this)
Friday, April 15th, 2005
11:33 am	THURSDAY!!! Ok so yesterday I went out on a limb here with my heart, and i thought you could never disappoint me but I should have known, but like me I constantly flrit with you and I assumed that you would be there or at least call if you werent going to come after all, you have my number and right now there is no justifiable excuse so I dont know what to do, other then to say that I am through, and I must move on but i never thought you of all people would be the one to make me say this about a guy, I mean what is my problem, cause obviously i am doing something wrong, and I thought the feeling was mutual and when a friend of mine saw us together this past week, she thought it too, and I know she would tell me if she just thought you were beng nice, but nope she genuinly thought you liked me, so I know ita not all in my head, and the problem here cant be me, so I guess when it come down to it, the problem here is really you, so unless you some how make this right, then I guess i dont want to see you right at the moment, even thought this is hard for me to say, and even do I really mean it, the only thing i can say now is that I HAVE NO REGRETS!! Current Mood: i dont know.......... Current Music: love fool... romeo & Juliet sound track ( how appropriate) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
11:21 pm	SPRING ahh I love the spring! nothing like fresh air and the smell of fresh green grass, and the campus really comes alive! i mean i have never seen so many people outside in such a long time, and the weather here has been wonderful!! everything seems to be going well with the exception of rugby, it sucks not playing but I just want to be on the safe side. I understand why I can't play right now but the thought of poping my shoulder out and not having a trainer be able to put it back in scares the shit out of me. I have always been luck and have never had any injuries but i guess my luck is wearing out, umm this kinda sucks, and I miss MATT! I haven't seen him in forever maybe I should invite him to beers on thursday?? hmm.... this could be either a good thing or a bad thing, but I will never know unless he doesnt show up. aww i can see it now the amount of fun I would have with him there, guys I really like him, and he is so nice and sweet hopefully he comes, then all of my bestest friends in the world will get to meet him and tell me what they think about him. well i am getting kinda sleepy 8am class tomorrow I just hope it doesnt kick my ass thats all. Later guys! Judes Current Mood: good (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
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1:39 am	winter quarter I remember that last years winter quarter went by so fast, and the weather was beautiful, instead of this mix of rain, cold, snow shit we seem to be getting right now at the moment i dont really know which weather condition is worse. anyways I am really mad at myself tonight. There is this guy, ( and i know what your thinking oh my god, not a guy problem,; no its far from that) anyways so there is this guy Matt that I work with and if you really know me at all I have a tendency to get these random crushes/fondness for the guys i work with, anyways, Matt is different in a way but when i really think about it, he isnt. I met him last quarter, and we have been friends since then, and let me tell you he is great, a wonderful friend, and so polite its ridiculous, but instead of me listing everything i like about him, last night I was drinking with some friends down the hall and we were talking about how supposidly girls, only like bad boy type guys, and how nice guys finish last, and I was outraged last night, and drunk which i think made it even better, but anyways do nice guys finish last? and I know I dont really like "bad Boys" or atleast i dont think so, but the guys we were hangingout with said that really we fall for the nice guy who is really just a dick, so then really we as girls just want our "bad boy" so then i thought about Matt, and he would definately fall into the "nice guy" group, but he is different i swear, he wont turn into a total dick. He actually is what I like to refer to as a cowboy. which is ridiculous i know but his only "good" pair of dress shoes here at school are his cowboy boots, loves country music, has a southern accent, but i guess i have a cleveland one according to him, and you know he is definately a country boy cause he loves wearing these white t-shirts to work that really make him look hot! seriously a tight white t-shirt, and from what i can tell nice abs, and muscular arms, but enought about what i like about him, today i worked with him, and before he left he told me to call him, cause he wanted to go out with me tonight if i went out, and i told him i would b/c he never returns my phone calls, and then of course he blamed it on his cell phone, which i can understand cause i want to kill mine half the time, but then he gave me his room number. the question tonight was do I screw studying and go out with Matt or do I stay in and study for my finals, well I didnt really have plans for tonight so I stayed in, so what do i do next? do i call him tomorrow if i get this sudden urge to go out? I also dont know if i could handle talking to him on the phone, everytime i call his cell i talked to his automated voicemail, so what do I do now? or do i let it be until after break??? any advice? please respond if you have any. Love, -Judes Current Mood: curious Current Music: More than words - Extreme (Comment on this)
Monday, February 21st, 2005
12:51 am	I just wanted to thank my good friends Christine, Amanda, Megan, and Amanda for making me feel better, and for being the best friends I could ever imagine and want. Sometimes you need an outside opinion about how you view yourself. It made me realize that I should love myself for who I am and not what I am not. I never thought I would ever want to be one of those girls that I mentioned before, but I think its just from me not ever being cared for by a guy, in a way that made me feel loved, or even wanted for that matter, and its definately something I need to let alone for a while. people say you find a love when you least expect it, you cant go out looking for love cause you will never find it. and this is true good things happen when you least expect it. I know there are other things that I should be worrying about right now, and thats what I am going to focus on. But i guess it was just a mental breakdown, and the winter quarter blues that have been getting to me lately and the fact that I miss my family dearly. its funny i never thought i would miss them so much, but i do. alot of good things have happened this quarter. I signed a lease for an apartment for next year, my relationship with my friends, my true friends got alot stronger, my sister and I got alot closer, and my academic career was alot better. I have definately learned alot more about myself too. That it really doesnt matter what other people think, as long as I do what makes me happy then I will be fine. (thanks christine) I also want to say that I enjoyed our little cocktail party on saturday! I swear I don't know what I am going to do when you guys leave me, who else would be able to throw a party like that and not make me feel uncomfortable about what we learned. who will be able to get me into those damn bars, since my sorry ass wont be 21 for a long time, (summer of 06) god you gotta help me find a fake ID. Megan Murphy: I will miss you next quarter while you are off traveling France in the spring, I bet it will be BEAUTIFUL, my sorry ass will be stuck here, enjoying my last quarter with some of my loved, and favorite vets!!! but I want to thankyou for Saturday night! I had so much fun and I needed it. now its time for bed, but with this nasty ear ache i may never fall asleep, so if you read an entry at like 3am, 4am, and then 5 am in the morning dont be surprised cause i have been sleeping like shit! I cant wait to go home this coming weekend hopefully so I can see a real Dr. that can tell me what the hell is wrong with me. mwah! love you guys! nighty night! Judes! Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 19th, 2005
1:26 pm	winter quarter so i have been thinking alot lately about random stuff, and I cant believe this quarter is almost over. Not that I am complaining, cause I really want to go home, cause i havent been home all quarter, its weird. I havent really gone out and unless it was with the rugby girls, I didn't really have fun. My roomates never ask me to go out with them anymore, and i think it just bothers me. am i not pretty? but then i was thinking i do the same thing to a friend of mine. i never take her out to parties with me but I always manage to show up at her dorm drunk, on my way home. I guess i never knew how bad the feeling was until now. The funny thing is i can write whatever I want about who ever I want in here cause noone really reads this. so i have been thinking why write, i am just another one of those random girls who will probably go through college never knowing the pain or heart ache of a one night stand, never taking risks with anyone or anything, and i just realized this bothers me. if i were to play that game never have i ever then i would definately be completely sober, this makes me want to erase my life and start over, be more outgoing and crazy! and never letting anuyone give me shit, but i guess this feeling will be gone after winter quarter, rugby season will pick up and going out will be more routinely for me, and things will be great like last spring quarter! oh well i think i am gonna go cry now. Current Mood: discontent (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
5:20 pm	Sibs Weekend!!! Yeah for sibs weekend!!! I had so much fun with my little sister!! I am so glad she came down. we had a blast all weekend long, and she kept up with me all night long even if she didnt want to keep walking around she did it anyway. Well Kelly your birthday party on friday was great! Happy 21st! god i love going to your place its so much fun!!! i love hangingout with all you rugby bitches too!! but lets just say judy had a fantastic weekend, i practically ran into everyone, and anyone that i knew, and I was so excited!!!! ahh i love my rookies and my vets too!!!! you girls are the best! if anyone is looking for a movie to go and see check out A wedding date!! w/ Debra messinger! omg it was sooo cute!!! well gotta study!, but i will definately be watching the superbowl game!!! yeah! later Jude (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
11:13 pm	ahhh the weekend.... so this weekend was lots of fun! i had a great time with my rugby girls on friday night at doogies, and i had a great time. 40s nights are alot of fun! and walking home on ice is too, lol but anywayswe will definately need to get together and do that again saturday: saturday was ladies night! a group of us went to the movies, and dinner, we saw meet the fockers, so funny! anmd then dinner at ruby tuesdays, was excellant, compared to the dinning hall shit, but i do like the dinning hall, anyways then we a little help from christi we were able to enjoy a fun night of drinking and sex and the city trivia game, so much fun! i needed both these nights cause i was really starting to stress out bad. cheers! Jude (Comment on this)
Monday, January 17th, 2005
1:14 am	Dads weekend.......... so another weekend has come and gone. this past one was fun though! it was dads weekend, and my dad came down to visit. It was cool we went to Luckys to watch the steelers game, and there we saw christine, krause, dougen, amber, and jessie. It was great! i missed seeing these girls! and then linz and her dad met us up at the bar which was alot of fun. then my dad and I went across the street to the cats eye for a bit, which was good. i got to see blake and some of the other rugby guys. then we stopped at baker for some coffee and we ordered pizza and then watched a movie, and then my dad passed out for the night. it was a fun night until we got to the cats eye, cause thats when my dad tried having a serious conversation about stuff, which then turned the night into a sad one but oh well it was fun while it lasted........now for some homework and sleep... Jude (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 13th, 2005
10:39 pm	ahhhhh ok i know its only the second week of classes, but already I am seriously stressed out. how can that be?? normally this is like my fourth or fifth week here but not this time.... so since this is my live journal I am now going to rant and rave for the next ten minutes until i feel better and there is nothing you can do about it unless you decide not to read anymore... First off i thought being away from home would be completely stress free! no not for me, right now I want complete seperation from my family, more specifically my mom! I am so mad at her! she is always starting shit with me lately. Like what gives? is this her way for punishing me for going away?? or what? because I am growing up and that I am a mature adult who doesn't need to check in with her mommmy everytime she wants to do something!!! And why is it that your bestfriend doesnt know how to return your phone calls but when she was talking to you she complained that we havent talked in forever, and why cant i be a good student and study, and work, and go out on the weekends and have fun??? cause you know why??? I am a loser. I am in my second year of college and I dont know if I even want to stay in my major anymore and I dont know what I would do if i would switch and I want a guy to like me, to pick me up and carry me across the river that seems to form outside of shively when it rains hard, and to fall a sleep in his room and know that nothing will happen, but he will protect me from anything!!!! life just seems to be so damn unfair to me right now!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! now i feel much better that I got all of that off my chest! maybe i should go to bed?? well nighty night everyone! Jude! Current Mood: life is so unfair! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
7:41 pm	Back to school...... I really love my roomies and my friend here at school. Allison always tells the greatest stories and this quarter has already had enough excitement. from late night runs in the rain to Max's room, andup late playing trivia games, to alli's reinactments of the previous nights events, and jimmy johns in the hall way and staying up and laughing until 2 am, its everything I have wanted here at school. and classes arent going bad either. this coming weekend is dads weekend, this should be interesting.... -Jude (Comment on this)